星期三, 8月 09, 2006
Today was quite a boring cum tiring day.. Cant wake up for this two days and everyday seening like i dun have enough slp... Well frm today onwards i will make use of my everyday to perpare for my competition so that i'm able to get in to e next round... heee... Begin to miss jonathan as i hv nt seen him for bout 2 weeks plus, dun kwn how is he sia... haiz... Tot thats i'm able to c him last thrus but who knws when our competition end le de also haven come out... Well hope to c him soon... I'm so sleepy now and dun really feel like workin, jus wish to seat in my office for e whole day doing nth... hahaha.. But i knw is impossible de.... Time pass damm slow and i dun knw wat shld i do for e next few hrs before i knock off sia... OMG!!! Today no mood in updating bout my shuai ge and jap shuai ge... I will be having a busy month for this whole month as beside having music garage sport day, i'm goin to have my own sport day for me to lose weight... I will be having two days of sport day, two days of practise, ether two days for my bf or one day for me to rest while e other one day for my bf and sunday will be my family day nia... Hahaa... Maybe i wont be able to tk it ba but i have to as competition is comin and this competition is important to me too... No one will understand y is it important to me de cos u all r nt me nia... hahaha... I'm crazy le... For e last two weeks before my competiton will be my hard day as i have to think of wat to wear and more practise too but will nv give up on my sport day la... I have to count on jjace and karen on wat to wear for that day and of cos make up too... As for sport day i count on meina, sihua, sheena, jean and xy le... YEAH~But e worst part is we have many song in everyone mind on wat shld i sing yet we have nt choose cos too many song le... hahaha... Dun worried we will be able to get a ans by this week de and that will be e time for me to start practise le... AIYO!!! Hope everyone around me like my family, bf and friends will be able to forgive me for nt company u guys for this few weeks or months... I will make it up for u all de but have to give me time and of cos i hope they will give me their full support for e competition too as i'm really workin hard on it... heee...Like wat charles say is time for us to work hard on to it as this time is no longer a audition le... So lets jiayou tgt nia and BE A STAR too.... Althought maybe this dreams will be too far for us but if we really work hard and believe in U CAN DO IT, we'll sure get closer to this dream nia... By that time this is nt longer a dream too us le... SO MUZ JIAYOU NIA~Tml is spore bday which mean is a holiday for everyone but i cant feel e happy holiday sia... Goin over to sheena and jean house there for BBQ wid meina and sihua too... Well i guess we will enjoy ba after having so many things went thru in our life and things seen like we r all doin well le... No more quarrel, no more black faces, no more unhappy things goin on and no more complaining too.... Maybe that's only partly of my thinking but at least i'm think is e right side and nt e wrong side, i think i really have xiang tong le... As i dun wish to carry on my life wid all unhappy things... If ppl wanna be my frenz they will be, if ppl dun wan den no matter how i force also no use... So no point carried on quarrel and bu shuang wid each other... heee...I like wat we r now as in we still contact each other... And i realise friends dun have to meet everyday or call each other everyday too.. Friends dun have to report everythings to each other or tellin each other everythings which have nth to do wid em... Well all e things which i had did in e past is wrong and i will stop all that now as i dun wan this to carried plus i'm really tired le... Believe it or nt is up to u... Ytd i gt to read her blog and saw all e things she say in her blog and of cos i knw she's saying bout me but i dun blam her as wat she say is all right... Bt that doesnt wat i mean, i jus wan more freedom... I'm nt sayin i dun have freedom and i knw i have more freedom but e freedom i'm having now is to report to u every min and hrs... Maybe thats only wat i think or maybe that dun mean wat u r doing...I knw all she did is for my own gd and i really happy too... I also feelin sad and lost as e freedom i'm having r things which i cant feel it... I tot of blogging this out since long ago but i didnt cos i dun wanna hurt anyone... Not i dun wanna share all my tots wid her, jus that i'm too angry wid her sometime... I only wanna go out wid no matter who and of cos i will let her knw e time i will be back and i mean it... So many things i wish to share wid her but i cant bring myself to say so as i really wish to be alone... Nt i dun like to talk to u jus tat somethings i really dun wish to talk and problem dun lay on u... Not i always wanna lied to u but somethings really bo bian cos if i tell u all e true u all will started sayin me again... I believe everyone dun like to be control too much and i believe u dun like too... I dun like too and maybe u will think that u dun think that u r control too much cos u r nt e one being control... I also miss those days when u r more like my friend and chasing idol wid me... But i really hope u can give me more freedom... Oh ya i did wanna buy things for u and i even get to c things which i believe u will like it but i have to think whether do i have money ant too... Jus that i didnt tell u and nt i nv think of u at all... I believe our gap will be getting less and less too... I will try nt to let u feel that u r alone as i knw how e feelin ar... But u have to hang out more often wid ur friends too okay! If nt later all ur friends run away jus becos u didnt meet em nia... Meet more friends is gd den stayin at hm doin nth... ANd my sport day will be comin soon of cos we will pull u along too so that we can lose weight tgt... heee... So dun think too much le ok>!~EVERYTHINGS IS FINE LE~LET HAVE PARTY TONIGHT NIA~OPPS~