星期二, 8月 01, 2006
~300706~I shall carried on update on wat i did on sun ba... heee.. Sunday was quite a fun day as erjie finally allow me to bring her two kids out... Bringing both of em to tampines mall for shoppin and bought em many things too... Well nth is important den family nt even friendship and thats wat i begin to believe after happening to much things in one goal... Really love my two baobei to e core but now i'm quite worried as one of em is sick.. Mei mei is having fever on since sun and is quite high but yet she wanna follow me out on sun and i had no choice to bring her out... We shop for e whole afternoon and thru out all e time i was carryin meimei as she's nt feelin well... But i really enjoy my day la and hope there will be more chance for me to bring em out more often... Cos for e past few month to weeks i have been busy wid my lesson and event that i hardly get to c my family and e my two baobei too.. Erjie have started to complaining whenever she heard that i'm goin out again and i knw she mean gd for me as i really spend too much time outside le... Well will try to spend more time wid em after singing competition ba... ~310706~Went to charles's office for practise as i only left 3days and i didnt went dwn for e whole week of last week... Only charles is there to correct us cos minsy and jon is nt free to come dwn.... When i reach there i ask someone y she nv wrote my name in her blog and she say cos i'm already one of 'dotz' thats y she nv wrote my name out... WTH!!! Pls 'dotz' dun belongs to me and i dun wan to be one of em too as i'm nt that kind of person...When u say that have u ever kwn how i feel? Wat u mean by that? If u dun wanna be in ur grp den pls dun get me dwn cos e problem is nt on me... Jus becos i'm cloz wid em and u can jus put me in as u like means i can only say u wanna be one of j.y.m.p.m.p.s la... PLs la ! Problem is getting more and more le can u jus stop make more problem?! I really dun understand wat kind of thinking u had and cant believe u will say tis kind of things too... WADEVER! Anyway is over le and no point gettin angry cos i can understand her feelin too jus too surprise to heard wat she say... And i jus wanna let her knw i nv wanna be in ur grp and pls dun becos i'm cloz who mean i wanna get em out of ur grp as i nv think that way... Is jus we r click so i hang out wid em ar beside em i still have meina and sihua ar... 'MGY' is e real grp which will nv jie shan de as we grp up tgt and our feelin is more stronger den other grp i had... No matte wat happen to e rest of my grp as long as 'MGY' is still around can le... Hope u understand...My friend sms me ytd and told me lots of things and i did reply my frenz too... Of cos i agree in wat my friend say but after thinkin bout wat my friend send me I really dun knw how things goin to settle when someone is tryin to put more problem in... I begin to ask myself by puttin effort to revive a broken friendship will it be use when i'm e only one puttin it?! I knw everyone had their own choice but will muz i be e only one doin tis when e other side of my friend is showin me faces when i dun even knw where i did wrong?! Nt i wanna go off myself when practise is end, is jus that her face is damm black when i'm around... When i say hello to her happily, she can show that kind of face and when we r goin to have dinner she can jus happily saying out 4 of em in one cab and keep askin em to go faster when e rest is in e toilet or askin ppl for autograph... How am i goin to do? of cos i choose to go hm la as thats e only choice i left... If is becos of steamboat for nt askin her den i can only say i didnt even ask meina and sihua who r more closer to me lor yet i still make e effort to ask her althought is last min lor... Den when u all happily went out also nv get me in ar did i show black face? did i complain or nt happy? I'm still wat i am ar as i learn that everyone had their own life and nt everywhere i go will get everyone there wid me de... And i get to understand it after wat had happen for e past two weeks... As i knw everyone is busy wid their things and i cant get everyone to go my way and be free when i'm free ma... So nt i dun wanna go since my around will make her nt happy den i rather nt to be there by givin each other face... Hope my friend who sms me ytd de will be able to reply all e things i have say above when u get to read my blog... And nt i wont put effort is i wont be so much effort jus to prevent gettin sad if is a bad result in e end.... Today mood is more bad cos of e pain of my throat and it started when i get back hm ytd... Till now is still pain and competition is comin le, hope everything goes well too... I think tis is e 1st time i took pi pa gao myself in e morning when no one ask me to do so.... I'm that kind of person who dun dare to eat pi pa gao althought many ppl told me is nice but i nv think that at all lor... OMG!!! I have to tk it everyday onwards to prevent my voice is gone plus e competition is comin i dun wanna back out jus like that... lolz... Will drink more water frm now onward and tk medi too... I think is due to e weather plus i dun hv enough rest ba... OMG!!! haiz... Hate this kind of feelin sia... GOD PLS BLESS ME!!!!~I SHALL NT THINK BOUT ANYTHINGS NOW AND DO WELL IN MY COMPETITION~