星期五, 9月 29, 2006
This two days was a tiring day to me cos i keep feelin sleepy and tired when i'm workin sia, even watching 'gong' also can fall slp le and not becos e show is not nice lor is jus i'm too tired le... Hmmm I also dun knw y am i so tired beside slping late this two days as if i nv slp for 1 week sia... hahha... Jus dun understand la!! Aiyo!!!Same as e day before chattin wid jjace on phone after watchin 'gong' and i started to talk to her bout GH... I cant believe she still cant get over him and still cry whenever i started to talk bout him although that was few yrs back sia... Tot of tellin her actually i think GH did have feelin for her for those days and months jus that on e same time when we knw each other, he already had a gf and ppl around us all knw it... Maybe becos of this he dun wish to let ppl around us to say things bout him and jjace if he really break up and be wid her ba.... Or maybe thats e reason y he always tell her, he only treat her as sister ba jus to let jjace feel better... By den he and his gf break up, all of us stop contact le and when we get back in contact he already had a new gf le... All this none of us knw and i jus wan jjace to knw wat she thinking is wrong cos there're so many things that we cant say it out de... haiz... At least he did giv her a gd and swt memories right gal?!!Feel so bad bout telling jjace bout GH tat make her rem of her past and cry too... Really cant bear to c her cry as i really dote on her la, but by telling her all this is jus to let her knw e true and not keep putting those wrong ideal into her mind la... Hope she can understand and sorry gal!!!I also told jjace this few days i dun have mood to go anywhere jus have a feeling wanted to reach hm once my work end beside that i dun feel like goin out le... And all this started after i quarrel wid dar ba, no matter wat i do also no mood sia and cant get myself to slp at night, keep wanted to call or sms him jus to listen he's voice only sia.... But all this he dun understand sia, tellin him also no use as is not e 1st time i'm saying all this le... Althought feeling tired wid all this but i jus cant bear to let go of my hand, maybe all this is a xi guan to me ba... As we xi guan doin all things tgt and suddenly wan us to give up on this is quite hard and it took a long time too... Hmmm maybe really is becos of xi guan ba, well cfm meeting him tml le and shall c wat will happen next ba... Of cos i hope everythings will be fine and things will back to before la but no one knw wat will happen sia... hahaha...Will try not to start quarrel wid him when we r talkin and jus listen to wat he wanna say when he's willing to listen mine... I will also keep on update too la... hahaha.... Gonna get back to work le if not my work sure cant finish forever de... haiz.. Sianz....~TML IS A IMPORTANT DAY TO ME~COS IS DARDAR~