星期五, 10月 13, 2006
For e past two days i'm on MC so didnt updates blog at all... Jus came back to work frm sickness and i realise many ppl frm my off which wasnt that close wid me de also knw i'm on MC sia... hahaha.... ESP uncle shawn, eddie kor kor and many more... hee hee.... Feeling great comin back to work as e joke is still there waiting for me nia, MC for two days yet no one forget bout e joke... haiz... hahaha.... As for wat am i doin during this two days, hmmm let me thinks nia... Well company erjie for check up for e 1st day and went back hm 2 hrs later to carry on watching my vcd show... hahaha... Now i have stop 'goong' for e time being and fever over 'The magicians of love' for this 3 nights and days... hahaha... Really fall in love wid shao wei in e show as he's damm shuai and caring la, all e action he do in e show will only make me love him more nia... hahaha... As for ming dao, he's also shuai la, beside this two guys i cant find others shuai le.... hahaha...Love to be in e show as all e feelin seen so real when watching and even cried too... Well this few days was a gd day for me la, jus got back after quarrel yet we had a quarrel on monday again... Jus dun understand when den we can stop all this, always wan me to give in to him but when cant he understand me more after giving in to him le? Feel tired and sianz with all this till my tears no longer droppin dwn for him le, can only makin use of e show i'm watching to make myself cry out.... Being so long wid him i had nv request him to buy or get anythings for me, all i want frm him is to give me e chance to chat wid him on phone... He dun like e way i talk and due to that we nv get to chat more den 5 mins each time and end up hangin up wid quarrel... Friends once told me not to give ur full heart to guys as he will only think that u will not leave him no matter how he scold and etc but i can only say gals do have their limit of love de... If guys dun treasure em will only end up wid one words and thats 'BREAK', i think he dun mind this words ba as he say he had get use of being alone life without ppl control him .... Wanted to say out that words to him for so many time but i jus cant bear myself to do so as i still love him ba.... I cant even cfm whether do i really love him that deep now as before ant lor... When chattin wid meina at 201 ytd night and on e same time we r lookin thru all e sms he had send me, meina sayin she cant believe he's so swt de and i told her all this is past le... He's no longer e dar i knw le and soon he will leave me too le ba, e problem now is when and who is e one to bring up e words 1st... If both of us dun dare to bring it out will only cause more things to happen and more hurting to each other too...Frm this i can c that i'm a coward for not darin to do all that... haiz... Well so now sayin so much also no use maybe one day when i really dun wish to be e coward le i will sure say out de... haiz... hahaha... Now i dun wish to think so much le jus wish to carry on my life and do those things that is more important to me 1st and put this in one side since he also dun wish to settle it... Really nth more to c and say le, i'm really really bery tired le... He will nv understand my feelin jus like i dun understand him anymore le... Tml is fri le and is finally comin to e end of this week le so let me waitng and lookin forward to e coming new weeks ba... hee hee... Tml will be a better day for me and everyone in e world de... Will carry on watching my vcd and hope tat i can finish it by this week lor... hahaha... :p~TELLIN MYSELF NOT TO CRY~NOT TO BE SAD~