星期五, 11月 17, 2006
Suddenly i have lots of feelin in my heart and mind that cause me dun feel that happy today la.... Not really not happy la jus sometime, somehow i will feel low and moody lor.... Thinkin back to those time i started to support G-Force, becamin one of their friends and join in to build up MG wid jonathan... Durin these time there're happiness and sadness too, i didnt regret it at all although i did quarrel wid dar and even lose one of my best friend at that time... Cos jon really give me alot of happy times and make me feel that i belong to one of em too...But things wasnt on everyone way la... I tot i will be able to be wid em forever to build MG up and c it grow but things happen between me and everyone frm MG... We have some misunderstand and unhappy things keep happenin jus between me and em la... Becos of tat i became not that closer to each and every of em le and i was quite sad bout that too la... Not i dun wanna go back to MG le but i jus feel uneasy when i'm back there after wat had happen in e past la... I did still went back whether i can but not that often to visit em la and do keep in contact thru msn and sms lor... I still treat em as my friends too and i will always treat myself as part of e family la... I really hope they can understand me for not goin dwn for so long as i really feel lonely when i'm there and seein em as one big family but e pics is without me la... I knw minsy mummy, jon and ping did told me if i keep joinin em more often everythings will be back to before but too me things wasnt that easy le... I blame myself for lettin em to have such a bad image of me in e past and i have tryin to amend it le...So when seein em play and talk like a big family in front of me, i will start tellin myself not to join it in cos i will nv knw wat will happen if i keep pushin myself into e big family of em... I thanks em for always inviting me to join em in every event although i didnt join em sometime la... Thanks em for always puttin me in their mind and will always think of me too la... hahahaa....Havin some problem wid dar for e past few week too and lucky that all e things happen make us more loving and we treasure each other more too... I can really feel e love he givin me this week and i really enjoy it too... hahahaha. Of cos i will love him more too le.... hee hee... Hmmm actually after typing everythings out make me feel more better le... hahaha...Well i went out for lunch today nia, i went to army market wid mama and sk jie... Dajie wasnt around so i have to find my own food ma, plus she not around no point buyin back to eat la... hahaha... Havin BK wid mama in e mornin and we realise almost everyone frm my department r wearin all black sia.... hahaha... So we started to say e colour links to our mood la... hahaha... Shall have my lunch out more often wid em nia... hee hee... ~1ST TIME GOIN D&D WITHOUT DAJIE~SIANZ~